And You Let it Go.

Imagine you are walking down the street on a rainy day. You look around you and all you see is sadness. You see the rain beating down you changing the color of your clothes, you see people running from their cars into the houses, you see the sun slowly getting run over by the clouds. But just as you look down from the sky you see a lucky penny on the ground. You pick it up and put it in your pocket, wishfully thinking that maybe this will turn your day around and you continue on. You walk down the road looking for the next thing to make you happy. But throughout the day that penny gets pushed down further and further in your pocket until you completely forget that it is there. You forget the thing that was supposed to make you happy; the thing that was supposed to turn your day around.
A lot of times in life, our own lives become that penny. We have things weighing us down until we forget about the true happiness and the small things that make us happy. Those things being the people we care about, or just the simple blessings we have in our lives everyday.

We become too busy searching for other luck and forget about the things that means the most.
With this comes letting go. Letting go of the things that bother us, the things we can't change, and the things we can.
A lot of times, especially from personal experience, things happen in your life that alter how you see things later on. They damage you in a way that it will take a miracle to fix. You cover it up and wear a mask, and only let certain people give a peak at the real you as you are walking down that rainy street. You walk around with this mask hoping that people can recognize you as they look into your eyes. Recognize your sadness. Recognize that you need a hero. But with all of this baggage you have, it alters how YOU THINK people see you. For all you even know, one of these people passing you by could be your hero, but you don't give them a chance because you don't think they can help you. You think they will just hurt you like everyone else.
You end up having too many things going on in your mind that could go wrong, that YOU end up being the one that changes. And that's why those people can't help you.
That's why I believe that no matter what you do, consistency is the key. Consistently be you. Because the person that loves for YOU, will love YOU no matter what. So we have to decide to not get scared or change the way you do things, just because you are expecting something to go wrong, because of what has happened in the past.

Let go of whatever is bothering you and take into consideration that maybe you are focusing too much on something else. That being, the things of the past. When you are upset about something, it magnifies the intensity of everything else. Making everything, as well as your reasoning, seem worse than what it really is.
Making you sad.
Giving you that mask.
Pushing that new shiny, lucky penny down into your pocket.

                                                     I    don't    want   to   be   that  penny.

So don't let yourself be that penny.
Let go of the things that are bothering you, it causes extra baggage.

It's never too late to take that extra step and fall and pray to god that someone catches you. 
You just have to trust that things will work out and everything happens for a reason.
You have to believe that your heart knows what it's doing even if your head tells you differently.

So if you find those constant things in your life that make you happy don't push them away.
I know I am really good at that.
Don't push away the most important things because in time you will realize what you had, and what you let go.

So when you are walking down that rainy road, don't look at the sadness.

 Look at the sky and find the beauty in the rain. Look at the happiness of the children playing in water. Look at the cleansing feeling of the world starting over. 
Let the rain wash it all away. And then let it go.

"Today I’m gonna keep on walking
I’m gonna hold my head up high
I’m gonna leave it all behind

I've got no more tears to cry
 Today I’m gonna stand out in the rain
Let it wash it all away

Yeah wash it all away
I’m gonna let it go." -Tim McGraw

So thank you to my Skyler for helping me figure that out. And thank you for continuing to believe in me when no one else has had the time to.