And You Let it Go.

Imagine you are walking down the street on a rainy day. You look around you and all you see is sadness. You see the rain beating down you changing the color of your clothes, you see people running from their cars into the houses, you see the sun slowly getting run over by the clouds. But just as you look down from the sky you see a lucky penny on the ground. You pick it up and put it in your pocket, wishfully thinking that maybe this will turn your day around and you continue on. You walk down the road looking for the next thing to make you happy. But throughout the day that penny gets pushed down further and further in your pocket until you completely forget that it is there. You forget the thing that was supposed to make you happy; the thing that was supposed to turn your day around.
A lot of times in life, our own lives become that penny. We have things weighing us down until we forget about the true happiness and the small things that make us happy. Those things being the people we care about, or just the simple blessings we have in our lives everyday.

We become too busy searching for other luck and forget about the things that means the most.
With this comes letting go. Letting go of the things that bother us, the things we can't change, and the things we can.
A lot of times, especially from personal experience, things happen in your life that alter how you see things later on. They damage you in a way that it will take a miracle to fix. You cover it up and wear a mask, and only let certain people give a peak at the real you as you are walking down that rainy street. You walk around with this mask hoping that people can recognize you as they look into your eyes. Recognize your sadness. Recognize that you need a hero. But with all of this baggage you have, it alters how YOU THINK people see you. For all you even know, one of these people passing you by could be your hero, but you don't give them a chance because you don't think they can help you. You think they will just hurt you like everyone else.
You end up having too many things going on in your mind that could go wrong, that YOU end up being the one that changes. And that's why those people can't help you.
That's why I believe that no matter what you do, consistency is the key. Consistently be you. Because the person that loves for YOU, will love YOU no matter what. So we have to decide to not get scared or change the way you do things, just because you are expecting something to go wrong, because of what has happened in the past.

Let go of whatever is bothering you and take into consideration that maybe you are focusing too much on something else. That being, the things of the past. When you are upset about something, it magnifies the intensity of everything else. Making everything, as well as your reasoning, seem worse than what it really is.
Making you sad.
Giving you that mask.
Pushing that new shiny, lucky penny down into your pocket.

                                                     I    don't    want   to   be   that  penny.

So don't let yourself be that penny.
Let go of the things that are bothering you, it causes extra baggage.

It's never too late to take that extra step and fall and pray to god that someone catches you. 
You just have to trust that things will work out and everything happens for a reason.
You have to believe that your heart knows what it's doing even if your head tells you differently.

So if you find those constant things in your life that make you happy don't push them away.
I know I am really good at that.
Don't push away the most important things because in time you will realize what you had, and what you let go.

So when you are walking down that rainy road, don't look at the sadness.

 Look at the sky and find the beauty in the rain. Look at the happiness of the children playing in water. Look at the cleansing feeling of the world starting over. 
Let the rain wash it all away. And then let it go.

"Today I’m gonna keep on walking
I’m gonna hold my head up high
I’m gonna leave it all behind

I've got no more tears to cry
 Today I’m gonna stand out in the rain
Let it wash it all away

Yeah wash it all away
I’m gonna let it go." -Tim McGraw

So thank you to my Skyler for helping me figure that out. And thank you for continuing to believe in me when no one else has had the time to.

Colder Weather

She'd trade Colorado if he'd take her with him
Closes the door before the winter lets the cold in,
And wonders if her love is strong enough to make him stay,
She's answered by the tail lights
Shining through the window pane

He said I wanna see you again
But I'm stuck in colder weather
Maybe tomorrow will be better
Can I call you then
She said you're ramblin'
You ain't ever gonna change
You gotta gypsy soul to blame
And you were born for leavin'

At a truck stop diner just outside of Lincoln,
The night is black as the coffee he was drinkin',
And in the waitress' eyes he sees the same 'ol light shinin',
 He thinks of Colorado
And the girl he left behind
He said I wanna see you again
But I'm stuck in colder weather
Maybe tomorrow will be better
Can I call you then
She said you're ramblin'
You ain't ever gonna change
You Got a gypsy soul to blame
And you were born for leavin'
Born for leavin'
Well it's a winding road
When your in the lost and found
You're a lover I'm a runner
We go 'round 'n 'round
And I love you but I leave you
I don't want you but I need you
You know it's you who calls me back here

Oh I wanna see you again
But I'm stuck in colder weather
Maybe tomorrow will be better
Can I call you then
Cause I'm a ramblin' man
I ain't ever gonna change
I gotta gypsy soul
And I was born for leavin'
Born for leavin'
And when I close my eyes I see you
No matter where I am
I can smell your perfume through these whispering pines
I'm with your ghost again
It's a shame about the weather
I know soon we'll be together
And I can't wait till then


 But I can't wait till then....

Our Deepest Fear

"If she's amazing, won't be easy. If she's easy, she won't be amazing. If she's worth it, you won't give up. If you give up... you're not worthy. Truth is everyone's going to hurt you, you just have to find the ones worth suffering for." -Bob Marley.

I think society expects too much out of people. But maybe it is because we know how capable everybody is of accomplishing things. We know that if they wanted to, everyone could reach their highest potential.
We are either two things... overly confident, or having the lowest expectations. I tend to go toward having low expectations. Not that I'm always negative, I just don't really trust anyone. And with certain things in life, I'd rather be safe than sorry.

And maybe that is why we do give our whole heart to everything we do. Are we scared of trying, or are we scared of the fear? I think it is we are scared of what will happen.

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.   Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous,
talented and fabulous?

Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.

We were born to make manifest the glory of
God that is within us.

It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine,
we unconsciously give other people
permission to do the same.

As we are liberated from our own fear,
Our presence automatically liberates others." --Marianne Williamson   So why is it we care so much about what other people think? Because they can't control your life. They don't wake up in your shoes every morning. They haven't seen the things you have seen or been in the situations you have been. They do not know what it is like to be you. They do not know what the things that have happened in your life that causes you to make the decisions you make--even if they are bad ones. A lot of the times, people don't know any better. And a lot of the times, people are looking for an escape. And the only way they know how are probably the things we all make fun of or judge. And in the long run, we are ruining ourselves by doing those things.   "The moment you feel like you have to prove your worth to someone is the moment to absolutely and utterly walk away."   

Some people will never understand the concept of everyone is a different person and we need to respect every single one of them. Those people are the worst kind of people--the selfish. If you really think about it, every crime, every rude comment, every bad action people is our of selfishness. And the moment that someone judges your or doesn't take the time to see the blessings you could bring into their life is when YOU should walk away. Its not because you are weak. It's not because you have no comeback to say to them. Its because when some ones makes those judgments, it's them who are not comfortable with themselves.

 

That is why we cannot judge them either. Let them make judgments about us, but if we get mad, or make the same judgments about them, then we are no better. We have no grounds to get mad, or angry because we are doing the same things back to them.

 

Don't get even, get better.

 

What's wrong with the world is we focus too much on other people. WE let them stop us from doing things we want to do. WE let them change to we are. WE let them make us afraid to be who we are, When we should be focusing on how to better ourselves.

We need to be nice to them because they are the ones who need it the most. All we can do it try to understand the things they do, and why they act the way they do. We need to be more understanding of those peoples. We can be the ones to change their lives.