Ours

Elevator buttons and morning air
Strangers' silence makes me want to take the stairs
If you were here we'd laugh about their vacant stares
But right now my time is theirs

Seems like there's always someone who disapproves
They'll judge it like they know about me and you
And the verdict comes from those with nothing else to do
The jury's out, my choice is you

So don't you worry your pretty little mind
People throw rocks at things that shine
And life makes love look hard
The stakes are high, the water's rough
But this love is ours

You never know what people have up their sleeves
Ghosts from your past gonna jump out at me
Lurking in the shadows with their lip gloss smiles
But I don't care 'cause right now you're mine

And you'll say
Don't you worry your pretty little mind
People throw rocks at things that shine
And life makes love look hard
The stakes are high, the water's rough
But this love is ours

And it's not theirs to speculate
If it's wrong and
Your hands are tough
But they are where mine belong and
I'll fight their doubt and give you faith
With this song for you

'Cause I love the gap between your teeth
And I love the riddles that you speak
And any snide remarks from my father about your tattoos will be ignored
'Cause my heart is yours

So don't you worry your pretty little mind
People throw rocks at things that shine
And life makes love look hard
Don't you worry your pretty little mind
People throw rocks at things that shine
But they can't take what's ours
They can't take what's ours

The stakes are high, the water's rough
But this love is ours

#RealTalk

I am a girl
Sometimes I am insecure but its only because people have hurt me multiple times
I am a romantic
I want what i can't have
I can spend every second of my life with my windows rolled down in the passenger seat of a car sticking my head out the window
I snort when I laugh
I am blonde, and sometimes I act like it
Sometimes I say things in front of people that I instantly regret
Sometimes I wish I was able to talk in front of people better
Sometimes I can be an idiot
I get a thrill out of making someone's day
I like when people I know say hi to me in the hall
I love giving and receiving hugs
I like when I can find the perfect pair of jeans
I love the feeling of sweats after a long day
Sometimes I wish I was more motivated
I am a little messy at times
I like pink
and blue
and yellow
My wish is to kiss in the rain
People like to tease me because I can take it, but sometimes... it hurts
It pains me to watch other people hurt
I have huge amounts of empathy
The thought of ever embarrassing someone would never cross my mind in a million years

Beautiful Mess- Diamond Rio

Going out of my mind these days
Like I’m walking round in a haze
I can’t think straight, I can’t concentrate
And I need to shave

I go to work and I look tired
The boss man said son you gonna get fired
This ain’t your style and behind my coffee cup
I just smile

What a beautiful mess, what a beautiful mess
I’m in spending all my time with you
There’s nothing else I’d rather do
What a sweet addiction that I’m caught up in
Cause I can’t get enough
Can’t stop the hunger for your love
What a beautiful mess
What a beautiful mess I’m in

This morning put salt in my coffee
I put my shoes on the wrong feet
I’m losen my mind
I swear, it might be the death of me
But I don’t care

What a beautiful mess, what a beautiful mess
I’m in spending all my time with you
There’s nothing else I’d rather do
What a sweet addiction that I’m caught up in
Cause I can’t get enough
Can’t stop the hunger for your love
What a beautiful mess
What a beautiful mess I’m in

Is it your eyes, is it your smile
All I know is that your driven me wild

What a beautiful mess, what a beautiful mess
I’m in spending all my time with you
There’s nothing else I’d rather do
What a sweet addiction that I’m caught up in
Cause I can’t get enough
Can’t stop the hunger for your love
What a beautiful mess
What a beautiful mess I’m in

What a beautiful mess, what a beautiful mess
I’m in spending all my time with you
There’s nothing else I’d rather do
What a sweet addiction that I’m caught up in
Cause I can’t get enough
Can’t stop the hunger for your love
What a beautiful mess
What a beautiful mess I’m in

Ordinary World

Sun is setting.
Waves are gently flowing back and forth across the sand.
Their is a light mist in the air and she stands at the edge of the water.
The purple and orange colors give her a glimpse of heaven
When she looks over and sees him.

What do they say?
Who is he?
What has her reaction?

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So Good

[B.o.B - Verse 1]
Drinking a German beer with a Cuban cigar
In the middle of Paris with a Dominican bar
Great head on her shoulders, she probably studied abroad
She transfered to Harvard from King’s College in March
She says that I’m her favorite cause she admires the art
Michelangelo with the flow, Picasso with the bars
She’s well put together like a piece by Gershwin
Rennaisaince style, tonight is picture perfect
So mmile, and pack your bags real good baby
Cause you’ll be gone for a while, while while

[Hook]
Girl tell me how you feel
What your fantasy
I see us on a beach down in Mexico
You can put your feet up
Be my senorita
We ain’t gotta rush
Just take it slow

You’ll be in the high life
Soaking up the sunlight
Anything you want is yours
I had you living life like you should
You say you never had it so good

[Hook]
La la-la la-la la-laaa
You never had it so good
La la-la la-la la-laaa

[Verse 2]
Suffering from first class cabin fever
Five hour layovers from Norway to Egypt
I’m to the point like the pyramids of Giza
Still lean to the left like the tower out in Pisa
I’m feeling single baby
I could use a feature
Swagger like Ceaser, I’ll get you a visa
We can go to Italy, and maybe see the Colosseum
I’ll be Da Vinci if you’ll be my Mona Lisa
So smile, and pack your bags real good baby
Cause you’ll be gone for a while

[Hook]

[Verse 3]
Well I been feeling singular
How about let’s make it plural
Spin the globe, wherever it lands that’s where we’ll go
We’ll hit up Europe, yep, and spend some Euros
And maybe visit Berlin, the wall’s with the murals
This is your month baby, sign of the Virgo
Private reservations, glasses full of merlo
A rose, a burgundy, travel like turbo
Brush up on your Espanol
We’ll Barcelona bounce
So mmile, and pack your bags real good baby
Cause you’ll be gone for a while

The Last Song

I know I know... Miley Cyrus. But if you look past that, it's fantastic. The last song never disappoints. I LOVE LOVE LOVE that movie.
I read the boom before the movie came out, and decided right then and there it was great. And Liam Hemsworth is a babe.

SUMMER

SUMMER CHECK OFF LIST

-Get a beach chair, some hawaiian punch, music and friends and sit back and chill on the salt flats. 

-Kiss someone in the rain

-Do something illegal

-Laugh so hard it hurts
-Go to a drive in movie
-Sneak out
-Spend all of my money on something completely worthless

-Go on a vacation

-Visit the beach

-Make at least 10 new friends

-Discover Myself

-Get a tattoo

-Meet someone who will change my life

-Go to Lagoon

-Do something I've always been scared to do

-Say something I have always been scared to say

-Read a whole series of books

-Watch all the new movies that come out in theaters

-Go on a fantastic date

Jealousy

So I have decided that there are too many abusive, and possessive relationships in high school... I mean... were in high school.  Yeah, it's tight to have a boyfriend or girlfriend, but not to the point where you cut out everybody from your life. 
I have seen so many people I care about get taken over by their relationships, very abusive ones.  And it was hard for me just as much as them, because I saw them suffer, but they couldn't break it off and there was nothing I could do. Most of it happened because of the "significant" other became jealous. 
So people, save the heavy stuff for when are actually MATURE enough to handle all of this ish.  Seriously, you'd save your self and alot of people alot of pain.   Becuase they care about you alot.  Enough to tell you when enough is enough.  It's not worth it.  Keep it casual.  Word.

Oh yeahh... an i'm jealous of the Poem "The Rose That Grew From the Concrete" by Tupac
It is so simple yet, so sophisticated.  It gives you a sense of hope out of something you never thought possible.  I am jealous.

How I feel About You

I dropped you off
Just a little after midnight
Sat in my car
Till you turned off your porch light
I should have kissed you
I should have pushed you up against the wall
I should have kissed you
Just like I wasn’t scared at all

I turned off the car
Ran through the yard
Back to your front door
Before I could knock
You turned the lock
And met me on the front porch

And I kissed you
Goodnight
And now that I’ve kissed you
It’s a good night good night baby goodnight

You couldn’t see me
Watching through the window
Wondering what went wrong
Praying that you wouldn’t go
You should have kissed me
You should have pushed me up against the wall
You should have kissed me
I was right on the edge and ready to fall

So I turned off the car
Ran through the yard
Back to your front door
Before I could knock
You turned the lock
And met me on the front porch

And I kissed you
Goodnight
And now that I’ve kissed you
It’s a good night good night baby goodnight

I turned off the car
ran through the yard
back to your front door
Half scared to death can’t catch my breath
Aren’t these the moments we live for

And I kissed you
Goodnight
And now that I’ve kissed you
It’s a good night good night baby goodnight

SLEEP

Sleep is something that is MY TIME.

Sleep is where I can think about everything that has happened during the day

It is where I can let myself think with our judging myself

It is a place where all my hopes become real

It is where I realize things that have never occured to me before
It is a place where I can be happy

It is a place where only I know what I am really thinking

I dream about my dreams in life

I dream about lovers

I dream abouts success

I dream about BOLDNESS; things I would never think of doing in the real world.

Unstoppable

“Every soul who comes to earth
with a leg or two at birth
must wrestle his opponents knowing it’s not what is,
it’s what can be that measures worth.
Make it hard, just make it possible
and through pain I’ll not complain.
My spirit is unconquerable,
fearless I will face each foe, for I know I am capable.
I don’t care what’s probable,
through blood, sweat, and tears, I am unstoppable.” 
-Anthony Robles NCAA Wrestling Champion

COURAGE

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
-Marianne Williamson
I Love this quote and i feel like it sums courage up in a nutshell for me.  Courage is something we must gain on our own.  We hear stories about how it has changes other peoples lives and how we must have it... but for me.. it really doesn't have an effect on me until you are at the other end of that deal.  To talk about courage we must not courage.


Courage is standing up to your friends.
Courage is asking that boy to a dance
Courage is taking a chance
Courage is being at the wrong place at the wrong time knowing something good will come about it.
Courage is something you have after you have already taken the risk; it's the will to keep going.
Courage is the FEARLESS of the unknown.
Courage is something we all say we have... but very few actually act upon it
Courage is the leap of faith
Courage is the will to keep going;
even after you've be knocked down.

Change

I am a person who HATES change.  Unless it is needed... When i get close to people I am not about to leave them... unless they make me.
But sometimes life just sucks... and you need things to change, but you can't see it happening...here is some motiviation.

And it's a sad picture, the final blow hits you
Somebody else gets what you wanted again
You know it's all the same, another time and place
Repeating history and you?re getting sick of it

But I believe in whatever you do
And I'll do anything to see it through

Because these things will change, can you feel it now?
These walls that they put up to hold us back will fall down
It's a revolution, the time will come for us to finally win

We'll sing hallelujah!
We'll sing hallelujah! Oh

So we've been outnumbered, raided and now cornered
It's hard to fight when the fight ain't fair
We're getting stronger now from things they never found
They might be bigger but we're faster and never scared

You can walk away and say we don't need this
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But there's something in your eyes says we can beat this

'Cause these things will change, can you feel it now?
These walls that they put up to hold us back will fall down
It's a revolution, the time will come for us to finally win

We'll sing hallelujah!
We'll sing hallelujah! Oh

Tonight we standed on our knees
To fight for what we worked for all these years
And the battle was long, it's the fight of our lives
Will we stand up champions tonight?

It was the night things changed, can you see it now?
These walls that they put up to hold us back fell down
It's a revolution, throw your hands up, 'cause we never gave in

We'll sing hallelujah!
We sang hallelujah!
Hallelujah!

Life and Death

I have learned how fragile life is...and how we shouldn't take this lightly... so i am making a bucket list
*I want to go skydiving
*I want to go scuba diving
*I want to accomplish something great
*I want to go back to florida
*I want to live at the beach
*I want to get married
*I want to have a real relationship
*I want to have children
*I want to pull an all nighter
*get a beach chair, and chill on the salt flats
*Go to Lake Powell
*Be a role model to someone
*Have someone look up to me for being who i was and not changing that for anything

Things I Like

I like Nutella
I like rings
I like boys?
I like sports
I like the color blue
Now you mention it i like pink and yellow as well
I like the warmth 
I like sleeping with my room cold so i can cuddle up in my blanket
I like summer
I like the feeling of being wanted
I like to know that nobody knows who i am so i can write this freely
I like Jokes.......what did batman say to Robin before he got in the bat mobile? ......Robin.... get in the bat mobile.  hahah... ha ha...haaa........
I like music
I like good posture and straight teeth.
I like the ocean
I like happiness
I like the feeling of being truley, genuinely happy
I like you.

Fears

Fears are all around us and can consume us if we don't know how to manage them the right way.  Or just trying not to think about them in my case.  
I fear that i will not be liked by other people

I fear that i think about things to much

I fear that i am just a hopeless cause

I fear that i will not get married

I fear that i will lose someone i love

I fear that something is wrong with me and i don't see 
things the same way people see out of their own eyes.  
I fear that Mr. Nelson will get mad because I don't have good punctuation
I fear that one day i will not be good enough anymore

I fear that i will never get over my insecurities.  

But if you looked at be from the outside, some of my fears may not be a obvious as others.  

Fake it till you make it.

Fears.

Fears.

Fears.

Fears.

                                                                                                                       Fears.  

Eventually you will forget about your fears long enough that they will become small and insignificant anymore.  So don't really worry about your fears.  

Thinking Of You

I'M thinking about you like an addict thinks about herroin.
I'm THINKING about you like bullies think about their swagger.
I'm thinking ABOUT you like superman thinks bout kryptonite.
I'm thinking about about YOU like the wind thinks about the rain, Like the stars think about the moon,

Like your smile that makes me swoon

I think about you like the sun rays think about the warm.
I'm THINKing about you like clocks think about time. 
I'm thinking ABOUT you like spoons think about forks.

I'm thinking about YOU like meadowns think about the forest.
I think about you like a vampire thursts for blood.
I'm thinking about you like robots think about emotion.
I'm thinking about you like a child things about warmth.
I'm thinking about Y
                                    O
                                       U
                  Like the ocean thinks about    R  E   A   C  H  I  N  G 
I'm thinking about you like weddings think about kissing, and stairs think about tripping......me.
I'm thinking about you like accidents think about me. Like blind people want to see.
Like Pillows think about the coldside.  Like confusion think about answers.

Baby, I'm thinking about you. 

Find Your Beach

Find your beach!

Someplace you can be yourself, be happy, relax... even in everyday life.  Who knew a beer commercial could have such an affect?

The beach is someplace you can sit and think about things.  It is a place where you can escape.....and feel like your problems aren't there for a short amount of time. 

Through the stress of the day it is sometimes hard for us to cope or to calm down and get away from school or friends, or go some place fun with friends. Find that place where you can be to be happy!  Whether it is the lake, a cool view or even a calming place in the back of your mind. Find the place where you can be you, take your shoes off and really feel the sand.

The people who make the stupidest decisions are the one who are destined to do greatness in life.

 Finding yourself is something that all of us want to do.  Know who we are, where we are going.  What we really like, or dislike...

Some may even stress out about it.  If you are anything like me, when I get caught up in the moment....I don't know what I like or dislike anymore...my mind jumbles.

But in the end... it all doesn't even matter.  Because, the person you are right now..is who you are.  Whether you like it or not.  Although you can change.  Per se right now, I get embarrassed very easily.  I wish I didn't, but thats who I am.  I am a scatter brained, irresponsible, accident prone, clumsy person.  But that doesn't stop me from being me.  It's all part of who I am.  Becoming who you are is also part of acceptance.  Once you get past the sadness or anger, acceptance rolls along and makes everything ok.  Like the five stages of grief?

Although you have nothing to be greiving over.  Because if people don't like you for you... than thats their problem, and we are only in highschool. 

I've always felt like I never fit it.   Didn't fit in with the cool crowd, or the weird crowd.  I'm idle.  Inbetween.  I am my own crowd.  I have had to accept the things I cannot change and learn from it.  What you like, or what you do isn't who you are.  Its how you do it. Or deal with it.  Just because some people don't like you doesn't mean you don't have bigger things is store for you.  The people who make the stupidest decisions are the one who are destined to do greatness in life.  They are the ones that could have the biggest impact on people. They just got distracted and chose to take the easy way out of things.  Don't make those stupid decisions.  You are who you are, and if you don't change who you are for other people, you will find yourself becoming more accepted... I know that first hand. 

Sometimes the most beautiful things, come from something not so beautiful at all.

What is Love?

What is love...? baby don't hurt me...don't hurt me...no more...

wow bad joke.

Mr. Nelson is right.  Defining love is impossible.  Even though i may not know the depths of love, i have an idea, as do most of us right?

Love for me, is that person you can't go a day without thinking about.  Sounds cheesy..but isn't it true?  Love is looking at the person for the first time and getting lost in their eyes.  Not remembering how to say hi back to them.  Love is wanting that person to be happy, even if it means you are separated or watching them be happy with someone else.  Love is sacrifice.  Love is wanting nothing more than to see that smile of that other person.  Love is persistance. Love is when your head is telling you logic, but your heart is shining though it all.  Love is living your life around them, their needs.  Love sometimes is something you can't have, but finding a way to live through it all.  Love is enduring.  Love is something that cannot be stopped over time.  Love is sometimes hard to find.  If it's love, it will find a way.  Love is the answer to all things. 

Introduction

Hi, this blog, is not just any ordinary blog. 

 It is a blog, that you can relate to, laugh, and get to know a little more about the person behind it. 

 I have yet to choose the title, but when i do, it will blow your minds.